Molotov Hearts - Part I, Chapter 8

by Chris Eng, illustration by Karlene Harvey

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Jenn changed her clothes in the TV room in about 30 seconds flat. She didn’t want to show up at the party with her knapsack, so that was the only option. She hung around the TV room until the last possible second, then did a quick-change, shoved her normal clothes in her knapsack, deposited it around the far end of the couch and shot out the basement door for the bus stop. To her great pleasure, nothing occurred to mess up her plan.

The bus dropped her off in a quiet neighbourhood outside the downtown core. Aside from the occasional motorist using Main Street as a shortcut to get from A to B at 100 kph, the neighbourhood was deathly quiet. The buildings in the vicinity were composed of warehouses, businesses in converted warehouses and scrapyards. There was a lone gas station in the distance ahead, blindingly bright next to the intermittent glow of the neighbouring street lamps.

The streets in the area were short and not entirely logical. They were obviously planned according to the needs of the various businesses which originally inhabited the area and, as such, there was no guarantee a given road would go straight through. That’s why she’d printed out a map online.

Jenn rounded the corner when she hit the gas station and stepped into darkness. Apparently, maintaining street lights wasn’t a pressing concern in the area. She wished she had a knife. Making it to the end of the block, she turned right and saw a few people standing on the sidewalk in front of a house. As she drew closer she could hear the party happening there.

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May 14
Today’s mailbag: a book on Islam so I can start brushing up on things I feel I should know more about, and an RPG that allows me to roleplay in the worlds of romantic supernatural fiction (I’ve played it before—it’s great). Happy!

Today’s mailbag: a book on Islam so I can start brushing up on things I feel I should know more about, and an RPG that allows me to roleplay in the worlds of romantic supernatural fiction (I’ve played it before—it’s great). Happy!


theg33k:

punkjackets:

Why so serious? Picnic Punx by Russell
‘Dead Kennedys - Jello = Picnic Table’
Ahaha, hilarious.
-Flowers

Holyshitamazing.

theg33k:

punkjackets:

Why so serious? Picnic Punx by Russell

Dead Kennedys - Jello = Picnic Table’

Ahaha, hilarious.

-Flowers

Holyshitamazing.


Molotov Hearts - Part I, Chapters 6 & 7

by Chris Eng, illustration by Karlene Harvey

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CHAPTER SIX

Jenn changed back into her school clothes before she got home. The jean jacket and mack came off, the blouse and sweater went on over the t-shirt. The skirt went on over the jeans, the jeans came off, and the stockings went on real quick. She did it all in the park, and after she changed she hung out and just basked, taking her time.

She rolled into the TV room around six and was just depositing her knapsack beside the loveseat when her mother’s voice echoed down the stairs.

“Jenn?!” It was only half a question.

“Yes?” she yelled back up.

“Dinner,” came the flat response.

Dinner was a spartan affair, composed of two or three things her mother had assembled after boiling them in their respective bags, and the atmosphere at the table was even more tense than usual.

“So,” her mother said, a forkful of what appeared to be sweet and sour chicken locked in a holding pattern in front of her. “Out with your friends again?”

“Yes,” Jenn responded with as much patience and courtesy as she could muster.

“I thought you said you didn’t have any.”

“Hesther,” her dad interrupted.

Jenn felt her mother’s eyes on her and tried to ignore the sensation as she worked on finishing her dinner with as much nonchalant speed as she could.

“What’s that?” her mother said low and casually, practically purring, like a panther toying with its prey. Jenn looked over warily to see her mother pointing a knife at the back of Jenn’s hand. At Spit’s address.

“It’s an address.” Jenn looked down at her plate and continued to work through dinner in as little time as possible. “I told you I had friends,” she said to no one in particular.

“Mm-hm,” said her mother, still purring, and Jenn swore she could feel her mother’s gaze burning a hole through the back of her hand.


CHAPTER SEVEN

Friday was like Christmas when Jenn was seven. Christmas when she lay awake all night because she couldn’t sleep. Christmas when her waking days were lengthened by a factor of ten or more. Each of Jenn’s classes seemed to last 12 hours, but even though it was torture, Jenn couldn’t shake her good mood, and she endured her scholastic prison sentence with the serenity of a Zen monk.

After school she went home and stuck around for dinner, partly because she didn’t want to pay for it and partly because she thought it would involve less interrogation from her mother (which was becoming a larger and larger concern). As Jenn predicted, dinner was a conversational dead zone and everybody ate in silence. Jenn knew her dad was happy (or at least satisfied) if she and her mother avoided going for each other’s throats and Jenn wanted out of the house with as little fuss as possible. She was going to have to bring it up, though.

“I’m going out tonight.”

“You’re going out?” her mother asked, incredulous.

“Yeah.”

“Where?”

“To Claire’s.”

“I don’t think I know Claire.” Jenn could hear the panther tones creeping back.

“She’s never been over here.”

“Is she one of your new friends?”

“Yeah.”

“Is she the one whose address was on your hand the other day?” The panther leapt.

A shock ran down the length of Jenn’s spine, but she replied calmly and pulled a name out of the air as she spoke. “No. That was Fiona.”

“I don’t know Fiona either.”

Her dad rubbed his temple in a small circular motion with his index finger.

“Hesther,” he said, injecting himself into a conversation he clearly didn’t want to be a part of. “She said she has some new friends. It’s good Jennifer is making new friends.”

His wife glared at him as he spoke to Jenn. “Honey, we may not know Claire and Fiona, but it’s not like we need to meet all your friends. Go have fun tonight, all right?”

“Okay. Thanks, dad.”

The sound of silverware clinking on plates dominated the room, punctuated only briefly by the low sound of her mother talking under her breath. “Well… look who grew a pair.”

They finished their meal in silence.

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When faced with music compilations like this, can any of us ever truly feel we’re punk enough?


I just scraped away 17 tons of dust and rediscovered my Myspace page. This was my bio. Heehee.

I write like Tony Jaa drops elbows, like Akira Takasaki shreds guitar, like Tyrion Lannister ruins a dinner, like David Cross uses the word “motherfucker”, like Mi-Go steal brains, like Redcaps eat babies, like Kaneda rides a motorcycle, like Milk and Cheese love Merv Griffin, like Joss Whedon hates happy endings, like Golgo hits the bullseye, like the Warriors wreck Furies.

Fuck yeah.


YESTERDAY’S JAM

Bomb the Music Industry! - The Shit That You Hate

The chorus to this song has become a mantra I repeat to anyone in my life who defines their existence with negative values. We all have things we hate—there’s bands we think are garbage, or TV shows, or books, or whatever—but dwelling on all of that rather than the things you love takes a huge amount of effort and doesn’t make anything any better. Yeah, the government and the state of the world are fucked up beyond belief, but sitting around and hating it isn’t going to fix anything. Rather than going off on a rant about the things in our culture you think are stupid, talk about something you love, or (even better) make something you love. If the government is pissing you off, work on a plan of action to do something about it. Focus on hope. Getting mired in the world’s general shittiness is pretty punk, I guess, but it’s totally defeatist. Grow a pair (of balls or ovaries) and stand up for what you love and believe in—not by tearing everyone down but by building things up. You may be surprised at the results.


Dessert.

Dessert.


It’s called gratitude, and that’s right.

It’s called gratitude, and that’s right.


Molotov Hearts - Part I, Chapter 5

 by Chris Eng, Illustration by Karlene Harvey

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The next day at school was a wash.

Jenn had gotten four hours of sleep and proceeded upon waking to shamble through her day, hitting her cues for where she needed to be but not retaining anything in any of her classes. She took no notes and during a post-lunch video presentation in English managed to fall asleep. She was pretty sure she wasn’t snoring, but there was a sizable puddle of drool on her desk when the lights flicked on at the end of class. She wiped it up with her bag as nonchalantly as she was able and exited the room.

Stepping into the hall was good for a sharp shock of awareness, but even the chore of having to move around wasn’t going to keep her upright for long. She stumbled toward Physics and managed to collide head-on with Claire who was talking to the rest of her crew.

“McNabb,” Claire said with an exasperated air. “You look a little tired. Maybe you need a can of Coke or Red Bull or some meth or a new personality. By the way, you’ve got a little something there.” She pointed at Jenn’s cheek.

Jenn reached up and touched her face.

“Almost,” Claire encouraged.

Jenn moved her fingers around for a second and then felt a slight crust.

“Yeah, there ya go,” said Claire, the rest of her cronies barely containing their laughter.

Jenn rubbed at the crust but it wasn’t going away.

“You seem to be having some trouble with that. Well, see ya.”

She waved goodbye and the cluster of friends dispersed in gales of no-longer-contained laughter.

Jenn broke for the nearest washroom in a sudden flash of panic, careening through the halls and barely avoiding multiple collisions with the rest of the student population. She burst through the door and screeched to a halt in front of the mirror.

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